Sunday, July 19, 2009

Sunday Mornings

I really have to be consistent with my blog posts! It has been one month without a post. I guess life does take over sometimes. Right now, I'm actually sitting on my back deck, on a beautiful Sunday morning...well it's actually 1pm now. Drinking an iced latte....thinking about my Nana. She loves iced coffee. She will be 95 this August.

It might sound a bit weird, but on Sunday mornings, I really do a lot of thinking/pondering about my life. I have so much on my mind lately. Where I should be, what I should be doing, etc. Kenny will be going away for 10 weeks to Charlotte,NC. for the Wachovia/Wells Fargo merger. He's a Corporate Trainer, where travel is common, but this is a bit much. I feel that we never get that couple of days of just enjoying eachother without any worries. Whether it be travel, money, jobs, house...etc.

I know that's life...but it seems so hard sometimes to just "be" happy. There are a lot of things that make me happy...of course. Sometimes I feel that I can't be happy for myself, if other things in my life aren't fulfilled. I know I have to get over that, and take the plunge. I must do what I feel in my heart is right for me and my soul. I need to feed my soul....Once I start doing so...I believe everything will fall into place...
***One of the things that makes me happy. Fav pic from San Juan, P.R. last summer.


Skinner Family said...

I love Sundays.... it is a great day to think, ponder, reflect, relax... you know it. I think you are amazing to be apart from your husband so much. Maybe you can visit NC!

emily said...

Aaah, the trap of the word 'should'. I go there too and it's sooo hard. And it's so hard to just be and not want more. I hear you hon! But, I do try really hard to say that there are no 'shoulds' in life. Maybe try a Sunday without any 'shoulds'! :) It's hard to do! LOL. :P I'm glad you blogged and I'd love to hear more on filling up your soul. I'm working on that too. It's hard to take the time for ourselves to get to that desired place. Ten weeks is a LOT! Let me know if you go to Lancaster's!